This evening, I began to experience increased visual symptoms. Out of absolutely nowhere, I started seeing bright flashes of light, peripherally. My vision was blurred, too.
I must admit that I was feeling very stressed, for a couple of hours, before these increased MS symptoms started to occur. I found myself thinking that I honestly don’t know where I’ll find the strength to deal with undergoing additional surgeries this year.
Next week, I’ll be seeing a gynecologist, for a consultation regarding an endometrial ablation for my persistent menorrhagia. I received this same surgery previously, in 2002, for the exact same reason. My primary care physician wants to rule out uterine cancer as the etiology of my menorrhagia. This has been weighing heavily on my mind.
In only three more weeks, I’ll be seeking a second opinion regarding a tracheal re-section, at the Cleveland Clinic. This is so completely overwhelming for me to contemplate.
I know that I can’t just keep having multiple dilatation surgeries, on an indefinite basis. Nevertheless, pursuing a tracheal re-section is a much more aggressive surgical procedure.
A tracheal re-section carries significant risks. It definitely won’t be the type of surgery that allows me to go home the very same day, like the throat dilatation surgery that I had three days ago.
I feel as though I have already been through so very much, and yet, there is even more still ahead of me. However, I know that God remains in complete control of my life. He has already seen me through so very much.
Thankfully, there are people who love me, and I’m deeply comforted to know that they continue to pray for me, on a regular basis. This gives me the strength to keep going, even when my future appears most uncertain this evening.