Today, my shortness of breath is significantly worsening. I had been previously scheduled to perform several initial psychological evaluations at the nursing home where I provide services. I’ve rescheduled doing so, due to my increased symptoms.
I hate needing to do this, since I fear being perceived as unstable and unreliable as an employee. Outwardly, I appear essentially the same, with or without my subglottic stenosis being in the process of worsening. Consequently, others typically maintain the same expectations for my performance, while my sincere motivation to perform adequately is not enough to surmount my illness-imposed limitations.
I have an appointment with my ENT in three more weeks. I can’t help but wonder what the severity of my subglottic stenosis will be at that time.