Today, I was uncomfortably reminded of just how much chronic illness has negatively affected my ability to get, as well as to stay, adequately organized. I did yet another Christmas vendor show today. It ended at 3 p.m. By the time that this show had ended, I was really starting to feel intense fatigue.
Consequently, my priority was dismantling my display as soon as possible, so that I could simply go immediately home and rest. I wasn’t carefully packing up my inventory, in a neat, organized, and systematic way. Of course, it makes the most sense to do so, for facilitating the set-up of future vending events.
When my MS fatigue hits like a tsunami, any carefully thought out prior intentions are secondary to simply finishing a given task in as short of a period of time as possible.
I intensely dislike that I am not nearly as organized as I used to be, prior to my development of chronic illness. I know full well that it’s inefficient to be disorganized. Of course, being disorganized wastes valuable time.
We spend extra time looking for items when they are not in the same, predictable places. This causes frustration, which in turn increases our overall stress level.
Increased stress levels are known to exacerbate the symptoms of autoimmune diseases. It’s yet another downward spiral that may be manifested due to living with chronic illness.