Yesterday’s lecture was a particularly challenging one to deliver. It addressed suicide, as well as parasuicidal behaviors. As a clinical psychologist, I’ve met with multiple individuals who have attempted to take their own lives.
In a psychiatric hospital, I interviewed patients after their suicide attempt. Many were angry that their initial plans had not been “successful.” They felt that this outcome was yet another way in which they had personally failed.
I’ve also had extensive experience with individuals who engaged in parasuicidal behaviors, including self-mutilation. All behavior serves a purpose, even if that behavior is aberrant in and of itself. It certainly wasn’t a pleasant lecture to deliver, but I believe that it was a very important one.
At this point, I can’t help but feel that my students want to be entertained, as opposed to simply informed, during my lectures. Nevertheless, it feels so great to not be struggling with shortness of breath at this point. It certainly makes it much easier to speak for a duration of seventy-five minutes.