I finally made it through last night. It was an especially difficult one. Taking high doses of corticosteroids meant that I was both wide awake, and feeling wired, for my non-stop clearing of blood clots lodged in my airway post-surgery all night long.
It’s utterly exhausting, on every possible level, to keep going through this entire experience. Honestly, it never gets any easier to repeatedly need to have multiple surgeries. I try my best to suppress thinking about just how many more are actually ahead of me.