How Do I Plan My Life Anymore?

Having MS makes it extraordinarily difficult, if not downright impossible, to plan your life. Symptoms of this chronic neurological disorder are notoriously unpredictable, popping up out of nowhere, at the most inconvenient of times. As a result, I’ve had to learn to be extremely flexible in my everyday life.

Plans that were made just yesterday may need to be seriously revised today, if not cancelled altogether. Even as I write these words, I’m experiencing increased visual difficulties. I’m seeing flashes of light peripherally, and my vision is periodically blurred.

Just a couple of days ago, I scheduled an appointment for this afternoon. Unfortunately, this appointment needed to be cancelled, with providing very short notice. I really dislike having to do this.

I feel like it’s terribly unfair to others to have to adjust their schedules, due to my chronic illnesses. Nevertheless, it was truly unpredictable, as well as completely unavoidable. Yes, appointments can be rescheduled.

However, there’s no guarantee that I’ll be feeling well enough to make my rescheduled appointment, either. I’m not being pessimistic by saying this, just realistic. I’m really having a very hard time right now. I’m not sure that you ever completely accept watching your own body unravel without notice.

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